I think I should tell myself more often that achievements, self-development and positive changes might need more time than I can appreciate in order to see that dream finalized. Dreams are not easy to follow and that’s why not many people get to achieve their dreams.
I think that the most important thing I learnt these two last years is patience. My heart was distressed so many times, and my mind rushed for more than a thousand times, making plans and trying to adapt to the repeatedly changing situation. Rationally speaking, I knew there were so many things out of my control, but my heart longed for peace, certainty and freedom. But do we ever have certainty? Are we a hundred percent at peace or truly free? Even before I couldn’t feel like I really have all of them. However, after two chaotic years I am more aware of who I am, of my fears and my power. I accept changes more easily, not because I gave up, but because I know I can’t control everything, and I shouldn’t even try to. I have more patience and I trust that there is a time for everything.
The thing is that lost my way so many times, not knowing if what I was doing was the right thing, but I still chose something because there is no other way to keep going, grow and learn. I lost my way so many times and I still feel lost sometimes. But maybe not having all the answers is the right answer. In times of uncertainty and fear, maybe the best way to find our way again is to simply let go and keep walking forward anyway.
Do you remember the scene in Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone where Hermione, Ron and Harry are caught by the Devil’s Snare and they start struggling to get out of the deadly embrace? Then Hermione says they should relax and only then they would live. So put your mind at ease, be patient and soon you will be freed from fear, uncertainty and any change that might ruin your plans. With patience and perseverence, you will build your own Rome.
Stay safe everyone and happy days.