I am reading my old diaries (pt.1)

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I always thought that it would be nice to read my old diaries after some time had passed. Reading what I had written years ago would be like meeting my old self and watching how much I have grown. Sometimes I wish I started to write a journal earlier and also keep it.

One day I thought of reading my first diary. I didn’t really remember the exact year, but I knew that I started journaling in my last year of college.

I don’t know why I wanted to go through it, but somehow I got curious about myself at that time. Was I more daring? Or maybe less confident than now? What did I like at that time? And what I used to think about? Thankfully, there are notes of what I used to do and worry about in my diary. And these days, I am going back to it like I would do with old archives.

My first diary that still exists today dates from January 14th, 2017. When I think about it, it’s quite a long time. I wrote it in Korean in an attempt to improve my Korean writing skills, but also because it felt the most secure language as I was living in a room of five at that time.

The first thing I could observe were my language skills. My Korean at that time was quite poor, and therefore my ideas were formulated in a short structure with basic grammar and vocabulary. I am sure I could have written a lot better and more complex about my life at that time if I wrote in English, for example, but this also shows the efforts I made and the worries I had about advancing in Korean.

I started writing this diary in my last year of college, when I also had to write my research paper. There was a lot of stress and I can remember how stressed I was even without reading my diary. It’s somehow strange that I rediscover myself as a student, a younger version of myself for whom studying was the biggest priority.

Some things didn’t change even if 5 years passed. I read a page where I was talking about how much music and Kdramas helped me to cope with all the stress and kept me motivated. It is the same even after 5 years.

While reading my diary I remembered about certain people I lived with, sometimes I described the atmosphere in the room, I remembered the people I became strangers with because of the time spent apart and different lifestyles. I talked about friends who are still my friends today and we became closer after all these years.

When I read about interesting or new things I did some days, it was so nice to visualize and remember the emotions, the places and the people I enjoyed spending my time with, I visualized the events that were left somewhere behind all the day to day worries.

As a conclusion, I think keeping a diary is a great way to keep a track of one’s progress and I find it also healing, helping to relieve stress and cope with anxieties. However, I think that going back to reading it it’s the best way to see if it helps, to check for improvements or even to get in touch with old memories. It is all written in “the book”.

Thank you for reading and happy journaling.

The good things that come with journaling

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Everything is good, but it’s better when you try it yourself. Journaling has its benefits, as meditation, yoga, working out, painting have their benefits as well. There are so many good things that you can try or learn for your personal development, but only after trying doing it, you will actually see if it works for you or not.

Today I want to talk about journaling and the benefits I could see since journaling consistently for more than 2 years.

Consistency
As I am the type who likes to learn and try so many things/activities, I try to stay consistent in the activities that I like the most. If I wouldn’t do so, I would be very disorganized and I wouldn’t benefit from my work. It has been more than 2 years since I have started keeping a journal and I think that I have been doing great writing on a regular basis in both my Korean and English journals. Consistency can be seen in time, and doing something for a longer period of time can also teach us new things about ourselves.

Becoming more sincere with myself

This is one of the things that I am most grateful for. Before writing my thoughts in a journal, I had a big problem with accepting my mistakes and my feelings. Actually, at first I didn’t know how to write and I tried to write things that might sound cool, ignoring my true feelings. When I tried reading again after a while, I couldn’t recognize that person, because I wasn’t sincere with myself, I wasn’t writing about myself. I thought that even writing a journal is not that easy as it sounds, but with practice and patience I could become more sincere with myself and accept more of my parts that are not that cool and that I tried to hide even from myself.

Clearer mind
At some point, journaling became more of a confession. As I tried writing about my feelings as they were, my heart lightened and my mind became clearer. Journaling about one’s feelings should not be seen as dumping the trash, but rather as becoming aware of what we actually feel, be it sadness, anger, envy or happiness. People often think that talking about how they really feel makes them vulnerable, and it is actually true. However, not talking about them and not knowing the name of what they feel might become a poison.

Improving my languages
I don’t know why, but it is difficult for me to write in my mother tongue. I used to write a lot in Romanian, but at some point, I started writing only in other languages. It might be because I wanted to improve my languages or maybe because I was afraid other people would find my diaries. I don’t remember when it started and why, but I know one thing: my writing in English particularly got a lot better, and even my Korean writing is a lot more advanced than it was before.

Express myself better
I feel like I can write about anything more clearly and more easily. This is related to what I have aforementioned, writing my thoughts on paper got better. On one side it is because I became friends with the language I write in, but on the other side I think I became friends with writing as well. Writing is also something that can get better with practice. Writing is like talking with no voice, and to be honest, after writing my thoughts on paper, I feel I can hear my inner voice a lot better. For me, journaling is like learning to talk to myself and about myself.

Accomplishing more goals
In my journal I often make promises. The hardest promise to keep is the one that you make to yourself. When I write my promises on paper, the chances to keep those promises increase. That is because when I visualize it, my brain stores the words and starts finding ways to make it happen. A written promise it is also more powerful because there are traces of it. When you speak of it, it is easy to forget it, but when you write it, you can see it whenever you go back on your writings.

Journaling is beautiful and it has many benefits. I only mentioned the ones that are the most important to me and according to my own experience. What I find even more beautiful is that according to your own experience, you might find different benefits and different ways to make journaling something of your own. Journaling should be like that.

Thank you for reading.

How Journaling helps me as a Blogger

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My eyes are closed. I feel the fresh air of night and I listen to the soothing sounds of wind chimes, the crickets singing, I can hear some dogs barking. It feels great to be here and to have such peaceful moments in my life. I loved staying outside and admiring the night’s beauty since I was a kid. You seeā€¦ I feel especially inspired to write during nighttime. I don’t know why, but this is the moment I feel the most creative. Should I tell you about the cheesy poetry I used to write as a teenager? Hmm, maybe not :))

I loved writing since I was very young. I tried writing fiction for the first time when I was 11. The problem was that I was always chaotic. I never had the patience to start with the beginning. I never had the patience to finish my ideas. I see myself as a creative person. I felt creative whenever I wrote or sang. It’s in me. The problem is my lack of patience and consistency.

I dreamt of creating my own blog for a long time now. It seamed to be the perfect place for me to start writing more seriously. But I was afraid. Afraid of being judged, afraid that people won’t read or like my writing. However, I wanted to do it at least once in my life, to become courageous and just write the way I feel. I doubled the challenge when I decided to write in English which is not my mother tongue. Writing still feels like a passion. It will probably stay like this forever. And I hope it will.

My blogging journey started in September last year. I wanted to change the way I lived, to take it easier and to live better. It’s work in progress, I didn’t discover America and I am still far from being close to my objective. However, I get closer with every responsible decision I make and I love the journey more than the destination. When I started blogging, I already had a journaling routine and I was starting to discover myself more and more. I was trying to discover what I really like and what makes me happy. Putting my thoughts on paper started to feel easier and easier. And I was doing it out of pleasure. It was fun and healing at the same time.

In time, I realized that journaling could be one of my super powers. It wasn’t because I was good at it, but because I felt so liberated, organized and relaxed. Yes, journaling helps me clear my mind. It is also a moment to become creative. Many of the ideas for my blog posts were inspired by my journaling activity. When I felt I had nothing to say I either took a break or I wrote in my journal. Then I would feel like having stories to tell again. Like now. Today’s article is inspired by my latest diary update and it is also fueled by this magical and peaceful night. What a better way to end my day than living in the now and writing about it?

This is it for today, dear readers.

Thank you for reading and have a peaceful night as well.

Why you should keep a journal in another language

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As fun and healing journaling can been, you can use the benefits of journaling in more ways than you would have thought. While keeping a journal is totally a person’s decision, you might be tempted to try this method as a way of practicing a language you want to learn.

My sister told me the other days that I used to keep journals since childhood. I think I started to keep a journal when I was 14. I started to write the things I couldn’t discuss with other people, to write my worries and the things I was proud of. I kept that journal for a few months until I got into high-school. Then a new period began and I started writing a new journal. Why? Because it was mostly about my days in high-school and about the guy I had a crush on. And because I wrote only cheesy stuff the way teenagers do, I wrote it in English because I was afraid my younger sisters would find it. You know, when you have younger sisters or brothers, your things are not really yours :))

No matter how cheesy that journal was, it was my first journal written in another language and I was proud that I could do that. I had a precedent. My next journal, the one I started writing during my university years, was written in Korean because I really wanted to learn the language and I did everything I could to become better at it. I have realized that journaling in another language is a very powerful method when learning a new language.

Now I have 2 journals, one in English, a regular one, and one in Korean, a general one. I can’t give up on any of them because they are that helpful in many ways. In English I write not only for practice but also because I am more advanced than in Korean and I also feel more comfortable than I do in my mother tongue. I used to read my old journals from time to time in order to check how much I improved, how I felt then, how I dealt with different people or situations in the past. But keeping journals in different languages made me realize that my language skills were improving too. Sometimes, when I feel discouraged that I am not doing a lot better with Korean, I pick my old Korean journal and start reading. I can easily see how much I have improved and it gives me hope and a positive feeling.

No matter how I look at it, journaling gives me joy and a sense of achievement. And it’s also fun.

I want to hear from you. Have you ever used journaling in another language as a tool to practice and improve that language? Share with me your stories and thoughts on this.

As always stay safe and positive and I’ll see you around.

Journaling – practice makes it better

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It’s been a few months now since I’ve started keeping a journal. And it was one of the best things I’ve done this year. In fact, starting writing a journal was one of this year’s goals and I am happy I’ve accomplished it.

I’ve wanted to change and improve a lot of things around me and about me in 2020 and I’ve searched for methods to do so. I also felt very stressed and frustrated since corona started to spread around the world and journaling was the best strategy I could use to calm my mind and to take over my complicated thoughts.

At first I didn’t even know how to write it in order to be efficient. I started researching about what to write in a journal in order to make it an efficient tool for self-improvement. The research helped me to get an idea of how a journal should look like, but after writing for a while, on a daily basis at first, I started to get the hang of it. Everything got a lot easier and I discovered my own way of writing a journal in order to help me improve as an individual. Continuing to keep a journal helped me to get to know myself better, to organize my thoughts and the things I wanted to get done, so I’ve become a lot more productive and it also helped me to calm my mind.

These days I don’t have the time to write daily, but for a journal to be efficient and helpful, it doesn’t need to be written daily. For me, journaling is some sort of written meditation, so I usually write when I feel I need it, when I want to calm my mind. It could be once a week or a few times a week. There are times when my other activities don’t allow me to write daily or even a few times a week. However, I try to write at least once a week. This way I work on consistency (this is something that I want to improve) and I can keep a more accurate track of my feelings and activities.

I started writing my journal in English even if my mother tongue is Romanian because when writing in English I feel more comfortable and I can portray my feelings more warmly and more accurately. So writing in the language you are the most comfortable with is very important in order to transform the simple act of keeping a journal into a sincere desire of getting to know the real you. When it comes to the language of my journal, I have to admit that I wanted to keep a journal in a language other than my mother tongue because it is also a great method of improving one’s linguistic skills. Being passionate about languages, I chose English not only because I feel very comfortable when using it, but also because I wanted to polish my English writing skills.

I believe that journaling can help people in a lot of different ways, depending on the objectives one sets. No matter the objective, journaling seems to be a great tool in becoming more aware of yourself.