It’s been two years since my last move, and after two years spent in my hometown I decided to start a new journey. My new goal for the rest of the year is to make this year the best year.
June and July were super busy as I looked for apartments in a city close to my parents’ house. I didn’t intentionally choose this city because it was close to my parents’ house, but because I always had a hard time moving and getting out my comfort zone, so the solution I could think of was to make a change that wouldn’t feel so big.
As an introvert, I always loved my comfort zone and I was resistant to change (I still am, but it is work in progress). Whenever I made changes or when something changed, I had a hard time accepting and adapting. I remember that I cried so hard while working when I was announced that my manager will go to another department and that I will have a new manager. (I really liked my manager, but I like my current manager too, so nothing bad happened). Since that moment, I started to work on my mindset.
I wanted so much to change my perspective on change, to become more flexible and to accept change as an opportunity to grow, as a new start and a way to get to know myself better. I read books and articles on accepting and embracing change, on getting out of my comfort zone. I started to involve more in projects at work and I decided to give myself opportunities to fail, thus to learn.
I decided to change my environment. I felt the need to experience something new, and this time I felt scared, but also very excited. I decided to let my fear come along, as this is a natural behavior and a reaction to something unknown. I was always scared by the unknown, by what I couldn’t control. This time, I decided to embrace my fear, but go ahead anyway.
I found an apartment in a nice area and I started moving my belongings. At first, everything felt unfamiliar and strange. My sister who will live with me felt depressed too. But soon, when we finished moving our belongings and started to give this place our personal touch, it got better. We told ourselves it will be the best year and that we will make it so.
I have never stayed alone in a place for more than a day or two, but I got to experience that too for a longer period of time because my sister had to go to another town for personal reasons. I was afraid that my social anxiety would stop me from going outside and enjoy the summer or simply run my errands, but with a lot of patience and nice words said to myself, I could enjoy living alone more than I could ever imagined.
Sometimes, the things that we are scared of are opportunities in disguise. The way we look at things becomes our reality. I learned so much about myself in the last two years, and even more in the last two months. Even if it was difficult and I still feel tired after all the things that happened so quickly, I am proud and happy with my decision and I am excited about what comes next.
I hope you are doing what’s best for you, even if it scares you at first. And remember, sometimes small changes take you to the highest places.