My heart feels heavy and my head is full of worries. I worry and worry until I feel like worrying is even worse. So I think I should do something in order to stop thinking. Or at least to fill my time with something practical, other than worries.
When your heart feels heavy, do something with your hands.
I start by preparing my coffee and the breakfast: a simple omelet with green onion. I watch funny videos on Youtube so I can start my day in a good mood. Then I decide to start moving. I feed my dog, I walk here and there. I go to the greenhouse and I realize I could start planting spinach and lettuce.
While my hands are busy, my head concentrates on what I am doing. Sloppily preparing the place to plant some goodies. I am not the farmer type, but I love to grow things and to surround myself with nature. It’s healing and I feel I at least can do something.
Then I start cleaning. It’s Saturday. It rains with tiny droplets and I like to stay inside on a day like this. Prepare the house for a nice and cozy Sunday.
I like how cleaning clears my mind. While I vaccum the carpets I imagine I vacuum all the bad things and energies. I wipe the dust and I imagine how all the worries are removed. My heart feels a little lighter as my hands keep moving.
Today I clean with no music on. I just concentrate on cleaning. Every spot that I clean makes me feel calmer and lighter. It must be true that when you keep moving your body, your head doesn’t have the time to worry, to imagine disastrous scenarios, to consume you from within. It feels great to do something, to be part of something.
Today I want to keep moving. I clean so I won’t think. I need a break from thinking. The world is busy and I am too. Today busy doesn’t sound bad at all.