Building a habit – meditation

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I added meditation on this year’s bucket list. After experiencing journaling and its helping and healing effects and wanted to try meditation as a way of escaping stress and anxiety.

I tried meditation in the past but it was a failed attempt. Maybe I wasn’t ready, maybe I didn’t know how to do it. Even if today it became a habit, I still don’t know if I do it right or not. But for now I decided that it’s not important.

I was already a fan of master Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche, but this year in January, in a nice winter day, I was so exhausted after work and I felt so lost. Like someone who can’t find its purpose. It started to rain like in fairytales and thus I felt like listening something calm trying to ease my mind. I was watching how the snow touches the earth while listening the teachings of master Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche. I must say, he is very funny and a good teacher. Slowly my heart became calmer and calmer. That day I started meditating. At first, I felt I couldn’t concentrate at all. I felt that all my thoughts waited for that exact moment to come and make my mind a mess… but I tried not to give up this time. I did so the next day. And then I would forget about it a day or two and then continue.

In February I decided to meditate daily even if I was too busy or too tired. And that is how meditation became a habit. Day by day I learnt more about me and it became easier to concentrate, to accept the ambush of my thoughts and the fact that I was still inconsistent concerning the time of meditating every day. One day I would meditate more than the other. Today 5 minutes and tomorrow 10 minutes. It doesn’t matter. Not stressing about it was the bet thing I could do. It was my method of reaching out to me, my method of distressing. Why stress about something meant to distress? No way. By doing this, meditation became my everyday joy. Not only something I do as a habit in order to distress, but something I look forward to doing everyday.

Thanks to meditation I also learnt how to breath and how to focus on breathing. I use breathing technique whenever anxiety kicks and it helps. Why didn’t I find this quicklier? Meditation is also a great way to slow down and to be mindful of your acts and of your thoughts and completing it with journaling is a great combination.

This month’s goal is to increase the time of meditation from 10 minutes to at least 15. What I also do, even if I don’t know is the right thing to do, is to alternate yoga with mediation. I took a break from yoga this winter but staying seated for so long on the chair at work brought me so much back pain. I started yoga again to relax and to recover from back pain, and it works wonders.

I am really satisfied I succeeded starting again meditation and yoga. I can’t wait for the weather to get warmer and to start doing yoga outside in the garden or in our front yard.

What about you? Do you guys meditate? If you do, please share with me any thoughts or advice you might have on this. Thanks for reading and stay safe.

Until next time,
Maria