My evolution in 2020 – an overview

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2020 remains for me the most challenging yet the most fruitful year. I believe that all the difficulties that came into my life challenged me to change in order to grow. I had to react, if not I would have been in extreme depression right now.

Today’s post is not only an overview on my progress for this year, but also a post to express my gratitude for the good things that happened to me and for the goals I have achieved. It is the first time I write more elaborately about my achievements and this is partly due to my journaling journey I started almost a year ago.

This time of the year I usually think about my goals for the next year, but this year it came to me that thinking about what we already achieved can help us check our development map and motivate us to continue the great work. Also it shows us where we are now so we can pick goals that would helps us continue our work and grow even more.

So without further ado, I will list the achievements that give me so much satisfaction and motivate me to keep making efforts:

I finished writing my dissertation. I postponed writing my dissertation because I felt extremely overwhelmed with a full-time job, a part-time job and school. I really felt I needed a break or at least postpone writing my dissertation for one year. I am glad and proud I finished writing it.

I started keeping an everyday journal. This is something I am very proud of. Journaling helped me in so many various ways and I think it is a habit that doesn’t feel like routine. I do it because I like it, I write whenever I feel like it. Journaling is like a friend you drink with, it never betrays you.

I started doing yoga and cardio exercises to lose weight. I lost 6 kg. I am very proud of me making efforts to lose weight. I really loved the process of me becoming healthier and more responsible for my life.

I started my blogging journey. Writing is really healing for me and I wanted to write a blog since I was younger. I wanted to have a cooking blog, but it turned out writing about lifestyle. I am still thinking of starting a cooking blog, but now I have other projects I want to focus on. It will happen one day if I still want it to happen.

I started my minimalism journey. I really consider this one a real achievement. Getting to know more about the minimalist lifestyle also changed me and challenged me to make changes where I felt I had to change. Since I started learning more about minimalism, I feel like I became more responsible toward the environment and toward myself. I started consuming less and more responsibly and thus I could save money more easily. I started keeping a track of my finances and say stop when I felt I spent too much. I gave up on eating meat. I don’t know if it’s because of minimalism, but it came so naturally after I got into minimalism. There were also a lot of other circumstances that made me choose this way of leaving. I am not a vegetarian yet because I still eat fish but I am quite happy with my choice of not eating meat. However I never pushed myself doing something I don’t like so if I ever feel like eating meat again I will do it. Right now I am quite satisfied with my lifestyle, but there is always a place for improvement and this is what I am looking for. Continuous improvement and a happier me.

Now that I see everything on paper, I realize that this year was quite a good year. If I don’t think about the challenge that we all had to face since February, 2020 could be my year. I did more than I wished that night when I saw the fireworks. The fireworks were like flowers on the sky and so my wishes bloomed in my heart. And now I know that I am capable of doing everything I want if I put my mind and my soul into it. I am waiting for another great year.

I hope you had a great year too. Feel free to tell me about it in the comments if you feel like it.
With infinite gratitude for reading my words I hope you stay healthy and positive and as always, I’ll see you around.

Hard times, our mentors in life

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If you look too deep into life, you will realize that sometimes life can be difficult. I am an overthinker and I analyze even small details. I am not proud of it because most of the times I overthink even everyday situations that makes me more stressed than I should actually be. But you see, looking deeper into life doesn’t always equate to overthinking. Sometimes you get to realize the essence of life and you get to know yourself better.

Everyone’s life got even more difficult because of the current situation and I was also affected. I had to make decisions that should have made my life easier but I don’t know if I succeeded. My social life suffered transformations too and I miss meeting people and traveling a lot. As I looked deeper and deeper I could only hear my sighs, I couldn’t even hear my thoughts as I would usually do. When this happens I panic and the unknown scares me even more. There are a lot of activities and projects I had to reschedule in an unknown and unpredictable future. But then I started having these thoughts: why think so much about the future when you can’t even predict what’s going to happen tomorrow? Why think about the things you have to give up on, the things you can’t do right now when there are a lot of other things you can do Now, even during these hard times.

Hard times are our teachers, our mentors in life. Humans have a powerful and beautiful skill: They can adapt to different and continuously changing situations. In these hard times the most important thing is to not give up. Every day is a new lesson for the future. Hard times make us more resilient and more creative. When things get more difficult for me, I try looking for other ways to do what I want to do, I become more creative, more frugal and I try to get more of the c’est la vie philosophy. When you cannot change the things around you, learn how to appreciate what you already have and don’t lose hope. Better days will come. Actually there is a theory I absolutely love and I apply it in almost every situation of my life. It’s Einstein’s Theory of Relativity. Everything is temporary. There is no absolute hard times, no absolute good times. I believe that during hard times, us humans, we prepare the path for the good times. There are our efforts that flourish into the good times. It’s because we didn’t give up and we did our best that good times come again to us. This is also related to perspective, to how you take this kind of situations. It is important to adapt your perspective so you won’t be too affected by every change or problem that comes your way.

Knowing that nothing lasts forever, we can appreciate good times even more. We wait and hope for better to come when we have a difficult period to deal with. This is called balance. Becoming aware of all these unspoken rules can be of great help during difficult times. It will get better because it is hard now.